csmith06

csmith06 @ 2009-02-13T20:09:00

2009-02-14T01:12:52Z

Things are going better.

I'm talking to a guy..Going pretty well, so far. He's nice.

I'm enjoying my weekends off.. it's so weird. Renee and gang are doing diff stuff because its valentines weekend. Which sucks, but I'll get over it.

Watching some movies with my mom.. just relaxing.

I don't really feel like belting my heart because I'm kinda tired.

But, I'm on the trail to happiness.. and I'm not used to it =/

So I'm getting nervous.
I had a training class in Trevose today.

Some cuteee guys. Dude, seriously.

haha, I'm bad. I know.

Just wanted you guys to know I'm still alive - not that anyone really gives a shit.

xoxo
Casey

Lately..

2009-01-07T21:17:39Z

I've done some thinking.

The end of last year ended, really really bad.

I don't feel like going into the hairy details, but basically I left one of the best jobs I've ever had.. for a guy. Guy gets fired, so I'm left here to clean his mess up.

I'm going back. I'm going and getting my job back.

I'm trying to pick a place to move to.

Cali is too expensive, north (and west) is too cold, so I've vaguely narrowed it down to the south, farthest I'd go is near texas, but I don't think I could go there. There's no people there D:

So, within north carolina, to florida and probably as west as mississippi (not near the water).

But once I get my job back, I can go anywhere. So I've been looking at places to go.

I've been all within the vicinity of the places I'd go, and Georiga seems like the most decent. I mean, with prices, and everything like that.

But I'm working on it.

xoxo

Quick(ish) Update..

2008-12-21T16:53:55Z

So, I've been running around like a crazy person.

I've been living in a townhouse (or, not living..) in Claymont. Truth is, I don't really feel right being there.. so I have been staying at my mom's house. I'm going to pay her (again) for living here, but I'm honestly torn with what to do with my Cat. He's a complete dollface, and I know I can't take him to my mom's, so I'm stuck.. I only have 2 months left on the Townhouse, but I have the money to just pay it off and be done with it.. but I don't want to get rid of my Cat.

We all know I broke up with Vinny.. and I've been talking to a few guys for a few months, but I've been dating one guy for a few weeks now, and I'm just waiting for him to not be in a rush? I think.. He said he doesn't like being in a rush, so we're still hanging out but it can only get better at this point.

He's a truck driver (he moves Air conditioners or something..) and he has a schedule where he gets a lot of free time.. so he hangs out a lot. I don't like only being able to see him once or twice a week.. I want to be able to see him more. I'm currently trying to figure out how I can do that..

Work.
well.. I went back to my camera shop.. and It was one of the biggest mistakes I think I've ever done, professionally.

Seriously - pay cut.. some comission, but not enough to make up for the cut. Hours suck, and my boss is a prick. Yeah, fun.

So I've been talking to my old old boss and the RM trying to get my job back.. I think its working, and we'll see.

Last night I went to Curt's friends house - Its in the woods, it was so cool. We played poker and he won a round, so did Josh and Amy won once too.. I really sucked, but thats okay cause I had fun. We also watched don't mess with the Zohan (I saw it already.. but thats okay).

all in all, I'm happy.. Minus the job thing.

csmith06 @ 2008-11-14T18:13:00

2008-11-14T23:16:35Z

I broke up with him.

He didn't kiss. I couldn't say God. seeing him once a year (plus no kiss) really pissed me off.

haven't talked to him for over a month. I feel better, now though.

I live with the coolest guy everr. Name's Justin. he's a doll, and a great sense of music.

I have my kitten.

I'm still talking to the musician, but hes been quiet lately. his friend's dad died, and I (seeing my family background) don't see what the big deal is.

I'm talking to a temple student. he's neat.

jeremy, the gamestop clerk.. he likes cosplay.. not sure that I like that.

I got a raise, its awesome. I hate my store.. though. I'm trying to move.

not much else.

later.

csmith06 @ 2008-09-04T20:49:00

2008-09-05T00:51:49Z

Holla.

I'm on my way to Italy in 7 days. sweet. Tres excited.

Moving into my apartment when I come back, with Dan. Dan is my new roommate. He's typical guy. sleeps on an areo bed.

I'm cleaning and packing and cleaning and packing.

Work hasn't been bad.

oh yeah, also getting a Cat. His name is Tyson. He's a grey tabby. he's a lover, not a fighter.

Other than that I'm trying to get everything together and just DO everything instead of planning for months.

yes, that is all.

no, I don't care what you think say or do.

csmith06 @ 2008-07-28T16:39:00

2008-07-28T20:42:05Z

I don't try to update this anymore because I don't even know who my friends on here are. Its prob been a year since I've written but that shouldn't suprise any of you.. Or me :)

I'm bored with my life and that's what I have got to say.

Xoxo

So, it comes to an end..

2008-03-07T20:17:39Z

I knew it was coming, but I just want more time... that's all.

He's leaving this weekend. 3 years, in Italy.
He promises we'll talk all the time, and I know we will.

but i feel like his mom (since he's been home) is trying to keep me away from him.
Par example: he's going to VA for the last 3 days that hes home. That means a) 3 days less with anyone else, b) I can't go to the airport to even say goodbye and c) she's a bitch.

thats what hurts the most.

I don't know what to do with myself. He's not even gone yet, and I'm friggin killing myself.

I need to suck it up but I can't.

We saw Penelope and 10,000 bc last night. both very, very good movies. I was impressed with 10000 bc, not as much with Penelope.

We had our big talk, and he said this wasn't -the- goodbye, and he promised that, but I have yet to hear if I'm gonna see him today.
I have to work all tomorrow afternoon, and he's leaving on Saturday morning.

it's killing me.

I love him, though. and I tried to explain thats why I was crying and he just looked at me and he said I love you.
I can't ask for anything more.

I just want him to stay home with me :'(

In 3 months it'll be 2 years. good gracious, I don't know how we did it. But I'm so glad we're together.
By the time he's done in Italy it'll be 5 years. fucking hell, that's a long time for some kids in love. I can't imagine.

I've only been mad at him twice, and he hasn't gotten mad at me yet.. which is odd, I know, but it's how we are.

Him leaving is going to be harder than I thought, I think.

especially when he does this no talking thing, that really irks me =P

I feel okay. I've been on and off sick since he's been home.. which also made a lot of this suck

last night he was playing god of war for like fucking 5 hours.. I started nagging him for us to go out and we ended up at the movies for 4 hours, haha.

I got a picture of us (remember at 2am? yeah.) I'll post that later.

It's gonna be a long 3 years, that's for sure.

xoxo

csmith06 @ 2008-02-28T14:45:00

2008-02-28T19:49:20Z

so today

is my day off. and yet I'm sitting at home because my boyfriend forgot that his grandparents were coming. so I'm waiting until later tonight, and we should be going to see fool's gold.

grrrrrr.

i went to work this morning to do a test so I don't get in trouble..

day before yesterday we saw vantage point. friggin incredible.

I'm really upset just because we were supposed to go to the mall, and he decided to not tell me about his grandparents coming until its too late to do anything. :(

and the other part is that we planned to go out today over a week ago and all this sudden he can just cancel. that just hurts my feelings.

I told him he owes me. 'nuff said.

csmith06 @ 2008-02-26T22:24:00

2008-02-27T03:30:27Z

boy is home. =)

we've gone out practically every day he's been home. I love that.
at times, I feel like I'm kinda nagging but he says I'm not.

We partied this past weekend. It was fantastic.
We didn't drink, but everyone else did. Tons of blackmail.

great success.

otherwise we've been watching movies together either at his house or at the theatre.

dude. tonight we saw vantage point. 5 *'s dude. It was flipping incredible.

I'm very impressed.

Tomorrow I have to work all night, so I asked him if we could go shopping and to the movies on thursday since I don't have to work and he said thats fine. yey.

he wants to see fools gold, and i do too a bit but I wanted to see vantage point more =P
so tomorrow i close with dominic, which is ok.
people otherwise are really starting to piss me off. thank god bossman is on vaca for like a week. I think we need a break from him more than he needs a break from his job.
but w/e.

so thurs i was thinking we could go to the king of prussia since he wants to buy some new shirts. he wore a really nice collared shirt tonight and he looked so good. =)
I shouldve gotten a pic but i didn't have my mem card with me.
after the mall we're gonna go to the movies, which will be fun. I was suprised he wants to see that, because its a chick flick. like a real chick flick. but I'm not complaining or anything =)

umm so yeah thats it for now.
xoxo

Recently, getting better...for the most part.

2008-02-21T13:47:01Z

So, last night Vinny came home =)

I got called into work so I opened, and since I stayed 2 hours late 2 days ago, they said I could leave an hour early yesterday. so I left at 4.

I had to be at his house at like 430 and i just made it.
We went to the airport, parked, etc.

he got off the plane and I saw that smile.. and knew that I'm the luckiest girl on the planet.

He was in his dress blues and oh man. I do love that boy in a uniform.

anyway.

Apparently there was supposed to be a solar/lunar eclispe last night, and he was supposed to go with Kevin to go see it, but it was snowing, and really cloudy.

so we went to dinner at Ruby's diner at Briton Lake, which was really good. They're so awesome its hilarious. I have to pay his mom back for my dinner since it was like 7$.
So today we're supposed to hang out, but I don't know what we're gonna do.

We're going to give each other Valentines Day presents, so yay. =)

I'm nt sure if he wants to go to Brandywine and see the teachers. It should be nice if we do.

Otherwise I need to go to vzw and give my coworker some cash so he can get stuff for the party this weekend at UD. should be aweeesome.

I gotta close Friday and Sat, so that kinda sucks. But today we might go to the movies, or go shopping.. I'm really not sure what we'll do. Or if he decided to make plans with the fam.

Another thing: I'm sick =(
I have a sore throat, and my nose is runny. I've been throwing up like mucus stuff. 2 days ago it was yellow, which i guess is acid, but other than that I'm not sure cause its clear.

My nose is getting better, but my throat is still sore. Which really sucks. =(

hopefully that goes away soon.

I'm watching Team America: World Police. I'm not sure why I'm up so early, but its kind of a drag. I'm waiting for Vinny to wake up so we can go out, but, again, he'll be asleep until like noon i think.

that reminds me, I need to take a shower. The first thing he did last night was sniff my hair.

that is seriously the cutest thing I've ever seen. I'm still trying to figure out a way to get that smell so he can take it with him.

I don't think I'll figure it out though =( He leaves March 10th, which is a considerable amount of time. but never enough.
I'm going to be so lost without him, it'll be ridiculous. He's gonna get a cellphone over there, which will be good. I think it's gonna be prepaid, so I'll be ansy the few days I won't hear from him :/

I think he got me a ring or a necklace for valentines day =) I got him a personalized picture frame with pictures from the past 3 years of us. He was wearing his ring that I gave him =)
and I got him a pocket watch, that he keeps in his pea coat :) which is also really cute.

I write him a letter for him to have. Pretty much says: I love you. etc etc.

he said that to me when he came off the plane.

It's real. just gonna be a long 3 years...

while im at work while hes home hes gonna recruit, so if he recruits anyone then he can come home early. which i would -love-.

work still sucks. I'm way too nice for the people i work with. yeah. I said it.

I'll be really happy when I'm at the concordville store. I have a lot more I can take on and get real recognition for doing it.

that is all.
<3 xoxo

csmith06 @ 2008-02-06T09:28:00

2008-02-06T14:32:58Z

so

things are kinda pulling together now.

-sorta-.

noone knows who got the lead techie spot. we all got our song and dance and w/e, but it was okay.

I'm moving to the new store, when it opens. Should be the end of March, or April.

Boy is doing fine. haven't heard from him in a few days, but he really gets into the work.. I'm expecting a call today at some point.

grandma is getting better. She actually has color now, which is really good.

Supposedly she should be on her way home today, but we dont know when they feel like doing the Biopsy for her.. so depending on that, is when she'll come home.
If things aren't looking so good then she'll have to get a bone marrow transplant.

shes got plenty of kids/grandkids to test to see if anyone matches.. so yeah.

but other than that things are coming back into order.

this weekend i have off for 3 days, so I'm begging dominic to buy me some booze to wind down.

hasn't happend yet, but today sounds like the day to do it since he owes me, big time.

<3 xoxo

It's that time again..

2008-01-28T23:50:30Z

alright, so I've got some time, figured I'd gather some thoughts and things that have been going on lately.

work:

damn it sucks.
So pretty much there's a whole competition going for the lead tech position.
They -made- me apply. Even though they already know who's got it. Why? because they're tards.
I got in trouble the other day. Because someone didn't check to make sure all the chargers were actually charging? So fuck. I knew I should've checked, but come on man. He's the one thats supposed to be help managing the store? and he can't take crap on his own? that's the only fucking thing he was supposed to do to close, and he fucks BOTH of us over. Yeah, that's just fantastic.

I'm trying to move to a different store. I really like the people I work with, but I'm sick of feeling like I'm in a nazi camp.

There's a store opening in PA, and my fav people from my store are moving there. Besides, I'm so sick of this drama, and people not doing VERY SIMPLE THINGS that since they've been here oh i don't know 2 years THEY SHOULD FUCKING DO THEM.

It's not that difficult to follow your job subscription, Really.

I got a day off today. T'was nice.

love:

It's fantastic.
Vinny has been getting better at messaging and calling, and I'm still bugging him to find out when he's coming home.
I bought him a personalized frame with our picture in it for valentines day. Yeah, it's sappy. Yeah, it's superficial, but I don't really care.
He's doing well in school, etc.
Told his parents at some point in the past month that we've been dating for the past almost 2 years in June. Yeah, that was a truckful of oh shi-z.

personal:

Went to see Cloverfield today.
It was... disappointing I think. There was no reason why all those stupid people got sick in the theatre. It wasn't even scary. I think it was because the filming was so shaky. Which it was, but it wasn't any worse than the blair witch project. I'm talking shakiness, not quality (or lack thereof in the actual movie).

umm... what else.
oh yeah.

I've decided.. that I'm going to get Vinny a blackberry. Probably an old one, and I'm gonna add him to my tmobile plan.
I know, that probably makes no sense.

but..

when I was at training (the 350 miles drive one), the trainer was telling me about how blackberry has this PIN messaging system, where its just for blackberries and you can message others for free. No matter where you are. Yeah.
that's pretty fucking awesome.
now I'd just get him one for vzw, but vzw doesn't have access in italy. which is where he's going.
so, I thought if i just added him on there for 10$ a month then we could just text that way. Plus, he could use it over there to call, if he wanted to.

and for that, I am a genius.

ps - anything said here is random stuff that doesn't have any serious effect.

csmith06 @ 2008-01-17T13:42:00

2008-01-17T18:43:58Z

So recently,
life has been so.

I don't feel like doing details.

But.. work is kinda sucky.

the gym is fun. They let me do my thing.

I ran 3 miles in 30 minutes. I was so proud of myself =)

I'm tired.

that's all.

well, today turned interesting quickly...

2008-01-08T18:01:39Z

alright.

not much to tell, but.

Been watching movies. Chick flicks. etc.

Heard from boy today. Said he was gonna get inspected from his petty officer. So.. he's been cleaning all day. trying to study, etc.

Bought some pizza, for lunch. Root Beer. my comfort foods mostly.

I decided that since I -finally- got my paycheck today (4 days after I was supposed to..)
that next week I'm gonna join a gym. Figure out what I'll need and st00f for bein healthy.

I was supposed to go out with my cousin today, but she got called to work. Which was okay, I didn't mind.. just kinda like bleh cause I wanted to see her and we were supposed to go shopping.

But otherwise not much is going on.

Still haven't heard when he's coming home.. I really miss him though.

I want him home with me.

Probably gonna finish reading the second book today. I'm about half finished. I read most of it last night. it's so good, man.

I can't wait for the movie. Now when I read, I see the characters as people. They announced who the main ones are. I think they're perfect for the parts.

The Vampire, Edward, is gonna be played by the guy who played Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter.
His name is Robert P.. something. He's british too. I think that'll be funny to hear coming from a 100 y/o guy whos supposed to be from Chicago.

The girl is Kristen Stewart, she was the girl in 'Speak', the messengers, she's a pretty good actress. I think the emotion and the inner conflict the majority of the story is about, she plays really well. She's got that tone about her.

I need to call the boy later, was thinking about going shopping for clothes. We're supposed to test my new webbycam tonight, as long as he's got time and whatnots.

I slept until like 11, it was awesome. like 10 hours of sleep.. that doesn't happen often, haha.

I don't have anything else, if i do, I'll post it.

otherwise I'm out.

holla.

done & done

2008-01-03T21:59:56Z

so.

my ring came. it's beautiful. =)

fits perfectly.

I received my caffeinated root beer and green tea yesterday. let me tell you, its awesome.

I never knew it'd taste so good.

I heard from Vincent today.

He's doing well, trying to clean his room. The ring I'd given him, he decided to engrave it.
That was really sweet. :)
he finds out today (hopefully) if he's coming home before his leave.

I also bought an ipod today.
yeah, I broke down and bought one.
It's the light blue nano w/ the screen.
It's 8gb and since compusa is going out of business I got like 15% off.
score.

It's not even half full yet, which is funny considering how much music I have.

I'm really happy, things are going well.

I got my computer back yesterday too. They had to replace the mobo because the port was fried.
=/

so... its good now.
works well. got the dvd drive back, fixed some keys.. etc

But the real reason I bought the ipod is so i could go running to try to lose some weight.

So yeah, 2008 is looking fantastic so far.
and I stress -so far-

oh, I also went tanning today.

it was fun. I'm pink again already. I really need to stick on keeping up w/ stuff.

I'm also working on being more patient, and just accepting most things the way they're meant to be.
except I need to be more healthy. Which I haven't decided if I'm going to join a gym, or just run w/ the ipod.
we have a treadmill but Bri's home and he sleeps up there so its not likely for me to use it.

Things are finally falling into place.

oh, and I ordered his cologne (still not here yet), I ordered some sweats and shirts from the navy store, a navy decal, and a webcam for when he leaves.

We had a really awesome talk today..

I found out some missing links as to why half the stuff he did, didn't make sense.

He's never kissed anyone cept me.
His mom doesn't know we're dating.
that pretty much sums it up.

we talked about hopefully him being in the same country after italy.
he talks faster than he thinks, so he got both of us really confused earlier.. it was funny.

bleh, I have to work tomorrow.

ohohoh but payage is tomorrow (hopefully)
which will be sweeeet.

I've pretty much run out of stuff to say.

So I'm going to start eating healthy and shit.

I need to get my act together.

anyway,
everyone enjoy their evenings! =)

csmith06 @ 2007-12-29T11:13:00

2007-12-29T16:18:35Z

Today's the day.

I haven't seen him for 2 days, and it's making me sad =(

I bought him a laptop sleeve for his comp since he wanted one..

Tonight we're going out after he has his company over.

I'm really excited =)

just making me sad I haven't had him in my arms for a few days.

I got some cleaning up to do here as well, so I'll get on that.

Otherwise I'll be waiting for him all day.. =/

I think I'm gonna make cookies.

I just miss him. He said he loves me.

We're hopefully gonna have a movie day tomorrow, and I'll force him to watch the romantic chick flicks since he hasn't seen them =D

anyway, I just wanted to say that.

Hopefully I'll have pictures of my ring and us to show you guys this evening

peaceeeeeeeee

I bet it's time for an update, then...

2007-12-19T04:00:16Z

Well.

TONS has been going on, and frankly I don't really care enough to come on here and talk about it. Especially since noone seems to read anyway.

So within the last month or so
as far as work is concerned... Derek is gone, Brandon is here, Dominic is here, Brandon will be leaving, Kerri and I are both trying to leave, and Scott, Cortney & Jess are also leaving/trying to leave.

I don't get it.

Jess is a hoe, btw.

Vinny comes home in 3 days... yes.
I cannot WAIT. Seriously, I don't know how I've been able to wait this long.

It's like missing the logical part of your brain. for a year.
it just doesn't happen usually.

anyway I found out the present I bought him, he already has one =( So I'm trying to think of what I can get him else instead I guess.
I'm getting a ring for christmas. :)

umm... what else.

oh yeah.
my computer fucked out.
So.. I've been without a working computer?
It doesn't charge. The DVD thing popped off. The TAB key is gone. The USB ports don't work.

I shoulda just ran over the stupid fucking thing.

I'm on my mom's lappy atm, thinking about what to do.

tomorrow I have to work in Newark, near where Carl (Vinny's bro) lives/works.

should be fun. I'm doing OT. yey.
...not

Doing nothing atm, watching the rat movie.
Trying to think of anything else I can make for Vincent for him to take with him.

so far..
-letter
-mix tape
-collage
-watch
maybe vermont teddy bear

we need to get him on my plan when he comes home, and he needs to buy a new cell.

tons of other stuff too but I'm getting kinda tired.

if anything else comes up I'll probably post it.

so, thats all for now

ta ta

15

2007-12-07T17:55:19Z

so let's give alittle bit of update today...

first time in years I've had more than 5 g's in my bank account. it feels fucking awesome.

of course we all should know this is for the italy trip. If you didn't know before, you know now.

15 days, ladies and ladies, yes.

he will be home, in 15 days.

I'm getting terribly excited. I bought him a pocket watch w/engraving on it, and a bell-shaped container of his favorites ferrer roche candy.. and I got him this really sweet card, and I'm gonna make a collage of us over the years, It's going to be awesome =)

I'm really spoiling him this year since I wont see him for a while and I want him to have stuff that'll make him happy when hes away =D

yey christmas is coming.

more money for italy. time to see him.
we're going to my aunt's house for xmas eve party as well.

It'll be sweet, he gets me meet mi familia. my cousin is way excited to meet him, too.

she's going to love him.

I made a cheesecake today. It's in the fridge waiting for me tonight. bwahahaha.

I'm glad I'm fat, I get to eat what i want and my man still loves me for it.

I'm not even unhealthy really, since i do exercise, = my job.

so I'm covered.

I need to get these nails taken off. They're starting to annoy me.
still haven't figured out what to do about my hair.

and still haven't figured out my outfit yet.

i should go get my nails taken care of now...
grrr

peace <3

'Bout me.

2007-12-03T03:06:29Z

Name: Casey
Are you happy with it? Yeah, It's okay.
Are you named after anyone? I like to tell stories about who I'm named after - a) that radio guy, or b) the baseball player.
Your screenname: thecaseyone
Would you name a child of yours after you? Nah, I'd rather choose something more distinctive.
Then what would you name your children? Mason, James..
If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? Mason
If you could switch names with a friend,who would that be? I like mine just fine.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people do with your name constantly? Yes. [Cassie, Kacee, Kayce]
Would you drop your last name if you became famous? I don't know. I like my last name, It's really common, so..

- - - - -
BASICS
- - - - -

Your gender: Female.
Straight/gay/bi? Straight.
Single? No, and I haven't for quite some time now.
Want to be? Never ever.
Your birthdate: June 1, 1987
Age you act: Most of the time I'm mature.. but at times I'm childish, and I can deal with that.. so my own age.
Age you wish you were: 21.
Your height: 5'6
The color of your eyes: Green
Happy with it? Yes.
The color of your hair: Dark Brown pretty much.
Happy with it? Yeah, I'll keep it for a while.
Left/right/ambidextrous? Left.
Your living arrangement? With my mom.. until I figure out what to do...
Your family: Mom, Brian, Cousins, then Vincent and his family :)
Have any pets? A dog
Piercings? two, I have my Tragus & Anti-Tragus pierced.
Tattoos? None, and I will never get one.
Obsessions? Music, IRC, Text messaging, planning trips =).
Addictions? kissing :).
Do you speak another language? Sign Language, Spanish, and French.. gonna have to learn italian..
Have a favourite quote? "I haven't really stopped smiling since we started. (I haven't stopped smiling since we first met metaphorically speaking)"- Vincent
Do you have a webpage? No.

- - - - -
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
- - - - -

Do you live in the moment? Yes, when it counts.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Yes. Way too much.
Do you have any secrets? Yes.
Do you hate yourself? Not lately.
Do you like your handwriting? Yes.
Do you have any bad habits? Yes.
What is the compliment you get most from people? I'm "soo cute and funny"
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? not applicable.
What's your biggest fear? Not having him in my life.
Can you sing? Yeah, I can.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? No. I hate people that do that.
Are you a loner? In my own way.
What are your no. 1 priorities in life? Family, Vinny, Friends, School
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? No. definitely not.
Are you a daredevil? Nope.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? Most things.
Are you passive or aggressive? I am a passive-aggressive.
Have you got a journal? this one.
What is your greatest strength and weakness? Strength: being happy Weakness: emotions
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? Nothing
There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity. Which do you drink from? Love.
Do you think you are emotionally strong? right now, yes. :)
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Yes.
Do you think life has been good so far? Yes, very much so.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? You have to take what is given to you, and try your hardest to do the best you can with it.
What do you like the most about your body? Eyes.
And least? Everything else.
Do you think you are good looking? Sometimes.
Are you confident? Sometimes
What is the fictional character you're most like? I have no idea
Are you perceived wrongly? Yes.

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DO YOU...
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Smoke? No, I don't.
Do drugs? No.
Read the newspaper? Nope.
Pray? No.
Go to church? No.
Talk to strangers who IM you? No.
Sleep with stuffed animals? No.
Take walks in the rain? Yes.
Talk to people even though you hate them? Yes.
Drive? All the time.
Like to drive fast? Yeaah.

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HAVE YOU EVER...
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Liked your voice? Yes
Hurt yourself? Yes.
Been out of the country? Yes.
Eaten something that made other people sick? Yes.
Done drugs? Yes, once.. and I hated it.
Gone skinny dipping? No.
Had a medical emergency? No.
Had a surgery? Yes.
Ran away from home? No.
Played strip poker? No.
Gotten beaten up? Yes, but only in playing around.
Beaten someone up? Yes, only in playing around.
Been picked on? Yes.
Been on stage? Yes.
Slept outdoors? Yes.
Pulled an all-nighter? Yes.
If yes, what is your record? I don't know. a week.
Gone one day without food? No.
talked on the phone all night? Yes.
Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex first (moms and daddys don't count)? Yes.
Slept all day? Yes.
Killed someone? No.
Made out with a stranger? No.
Had sex with a stranger? No.
Thought you're going crazy? Always.
Kissed the same sex? No.
Done anything sexual with the same sex? No.
Been betrayed? Yes.
Had a dream that came true? Yes.
Broken the law? Yes.
Met a famous person? Yes.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident? No.
On purpose? I kill bugs.. o.O
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? No.
Stolen anything? Yes.
Been on radio/tv? Yes.
Been in a mosh-pit? Yes.
Had a nervous breakdown? Yes.
Considered religious vocation? Yes ;)
Bungee jumped? No.
Had a dream that kept coming back? Yes.

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CLOTHES
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Shoe brand? my sandals.
Brand of clothing? Lane Bryant
Cologne/perfume? clinique
What are you normally wearing to school? hoodies and sweats.
How about parties? Ew.
Wear hats? No
Judge other people by their clothing? Sometimes.
Wear make-up? Yes, sometimes.
Favourite place to shop? Anywhere.
Favourite article of clothing? A hoodie.
Are you trendy? haha, no.
Would you rather wear a uniform to school? Yes.

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BELIEFS
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Believe in life on other planets? Yes.
Miracles? Yes.
Astrology? Yes.
Magic? No.
God? Not sure.
Satan? Not sure.
Santa? No.
Ghosts? Yes.
Luck? Yes.
Love at first sight? Yes.
Yin and Yang (that good can't exist without the bad)? Yes.
Witches? No.
Easter bunny? No.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Yes.
Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? No.
Do you wish on stars? Sometimes.

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THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
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Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? No.
Do you think God has a gender? God is a woman!
Do you think that science counteracts religion? No
Do you believe in organized religion? No
Where do you think we go when we die? I don't know, and I don't want to.

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FRIENDS
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Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? Yes. Tons.
Who's the one person that knows most about you? Vinny.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? Follow your heart
Thing you're picked on most about? Weight.
Who's your longest known friend? Katie
Newest? uhh..
Shyest? Me :P
Funniest? Samantha
Sweetest? Vinny.
Closest? Samantha
Weirdest?
Smartest? Carl/Vinny
Last person you talked to online? Carl
Who do you talk to most online?
Who are you on the phone with most? Vincent
Who do you trust most? Carl/Vinny
Who listens to your problems? Vinny
Who do you fight most with? Derek (and hes not even a friend)
Who's the nicest? Vinny
Who's the most outgoing? Katie
Who's the best singer? Ashley
Who's on your shit-list? my exes
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? Yes
do you like your family? Some of them
Do you always feel understood? Never.
Who's the loudest friend? KIM!
Do you trust others easily? No.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Vinny
Do your friends know you? Mostly
Friend that lives farthest away: Vinny atm :( 20 days til hes home <3

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LOVE
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Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title? It made me smile.
Do you consider love a mistake? No.
What do you find romantic? Lots of things.. seeing as how I'm hopeless.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"? Knowing them.
Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? Don't care.. I would've asked Vinny out anyway =D
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? Yes.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? Don't think so.
What is best about the opposite sex? The way they make you feel.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? Arrogance and Stupidity
Do you read porn? No.
Read the articles? No.
Just the pics? No.
What's the last present someone gave you? Chocolate and a hoodie.
Do you consider your significant other hot? Yeeeesssss.. especially in that uniform =)
What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk? Ignore them.

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WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
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That haunted you? Eric
You wanted to kill? noone...
That you laughed at? Carl
That laughed at you? Carl
You went shopping with? Mom
To disappoint you? Edwin
To ask you out? Vinny
To make you cry? Samantha (I was laughing so hard)
To brighten up your day? Vinny
That you thought about? Vinny
You saw a movie with? Vinny
You talked to on the phone? Vinny's mom o.O
You talked to? Vinny's mom
You saw? Derek, Kerry, Loc
You lost? dun remember

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RIGHT THIS MOMENT...
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are you going out? nope
will it be with your significant other? No; I wish..soon tho
Are you with some random person? No.
What are you wearing right now? pjs
Body-part you're touching right now: none
What are you worried about right now? absolutely nothing :)
What book are you reading? Twilight.
What's on your mousepad? none touch pad
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Happy, in love, sleepy, happy and happy
Are you bored? Yes.
Are you tired? yes
Are you talking to anyone online? nah, I dont talk to many people online anymore.
Are you talking to anyone on the phone? No.
Are you lonely or content? Content.
Are you listening to music? No, watching a movie.

csmith06 @ 2007-11-20T14:39:00

2007-11-20T19:48:33Z

so,
you know when you hear or see something.. or experience something..

you just go

OH SHI

well... that happend today

I realized a few things.

I'm in love.
I'd do anything for this person, and It's gonna take a lot to get him here. But I want to go through whatever i have to because I love him.

more tuned into -today- specifically what I've learned.

I have no patience.
especially with cellphone companies that want to charge me and shit for all this crap when i just want a phone =(
I've been upset today just because of all the back and forth i've had to do with this stuff.

this morning.. was perfect.

and... I'm officially flextronics =) well as of the 25th i think. something like that.

things are taking off for me, and I've been waiting for a while, so I'm just glad I waited this long.
cause normally i can't.
I miss playing halo & guitar hero 3 and gears.

Voyager comes out tomorrow, I want it.

I'm selling my env if anyone wants it.

also selling my blackberry pearl.

my nails are way too long, i need to get them done. cut. yesh.

Adam, <3

I'm gonna take a nap cause I'm tired.

csmith06 @ 2007-09-17T22:43:00

2007-09-18T02:47:21Z

so the past.. month or so
has been interesting.
to say the way least.

work is work.
but i do love it.

I had a samsung U740 but.. my fat fingers couldn't type as well as they should have, so i bought an env instead.

I love it.
except it is so ugly. but thats ok.

I've also been sick. on and off.

I have to work tomorrow because I'm so awesome, but I'm going to the dr on wensday.
I need to get fixed.

I need to wake up early so I gotta go to bed soon
just wanted to give a quick update for my own sanity.
peace nuggets.

csmith06 @ 2007-08-25T21:41:00

2007-08-26T01:52:36Z

so.
things have been going semi-smoothly lately.

I went to training last week.. matt was there.

met some nj kids which was fun. there weren't any other girls there though, so it was weird to say the least.

we (me, matt, rob, ish, and jason) went to Red Robin for lunch. it was really cool.. got to hang out with the guys, and the cheeseburgers were.. huge, to say the least.

meds seem to be working for now, which is really nice.

I've decided I'm going to Chicago sometime by the end of the year (or beginning of next year)
to see Vinny.
This weekend is the first weekend in a month I've had 2 days off.. which is really really nice.

I rented some movies, which I've been watching today.

I still have to watch fracture and 300.
my cellphone is back on, but I'm still waiting so i can switch to verizon.
I've still been debating on which phone to get.. lg vx8300, razr 2 are pretty much the ones I've narrowed it down to.

ugh I'm tired, lol.

i was supposed to go to the movies with tommy tomorrow but i dont really feel like it..
I'm thinking about maybe going in tomorrow.. I remember renee needs someone in Exton tomorrow but i do have stuff i gotta do tomorrow.. so I don't think I'll be able to :(

nothing else i don't think.
peace.

bleh

2007-08-09T01:26:26Z

so..
i went to the dr yesterday.

and.. apparently I'm at least half crazy.

so.. i got some meds.
that should help.

work is ok.

most of the time - just can't mind getting yelled at sometimes.

boy there named brian.
he's cute.
can't talk to him, though.
like a school-girl crush or something.

so, I'm hungry. and I haven't done a lot since i've been home.

so, I'm gonna get showered, eat and whatnot.

yar?

2007-07-26T03:47:54Z

so today i realized something.

I'm going to have to become a bitch.

now, we all know what happens when girls start PMSing and whatnot.

well.... try like, permenant pms.
haha.

well for my job, anyway.

things I've learned today are going to challenge me.. and how I have to think about what I'm dealing with daily and everything.
so.. this is gonna be fun

I was taken back by my mentor trying to get me to act as if he was a customer. It was too hard :/

but.. I know I gotta do it, and I gotta do it well.

this is what i asked for.. so this is what i get. haha.

other than that, I picked up HP today. should be good.

in other situations..

I have no distractions at work.
none of the guys i work with are at all attractive, which is ok, but at least normally that gives me something to like.. look forward to. They are great guys though, I'm really happy I'm there.

also, tomorrow is my day off. yay.
supposedly my old job wants me to come in to help.. but.. that means 3-930. man I'm too nice :/
only if one of the boys don't feel good enough to go in. >> should -not- rely on them. the assholes. they wouldn't do it for me if i was in that situation.

i also have to do my laundry. grr.
and I wanna go tanning tomorrow.. and i wanna sleep innnnnnnnn.

I've also think decided on which phone i want.

I want the samsung u740.
I have some thinking to do still, but its really slim, and it has a qwerty keyboard.. along with having an independent speakerphone (which is what i want)
so.. yeah.

stuff

2007-07-21T16:31:24Z

I came back from NJ last night ~7pm.

last week.. was really interesting. to say the least.
25 new people I will probably never hear from again.

All give a new perspective on life I'll probably never understand. New Jersey and New Yorkers.
'nuff said.

;)

anyway, training was really.. informative. I learned a lot, and I'm really excited about starting the new job.
tons of perks.

I can't really go into much detail because its propietary information.
yeah. I'm awesome.

other stuff going on...

Tmobile completely fucked me over.
I have a 200$ bill i have to pay, but I'm going to switch to verizon.
so I (hopefully) can just pay the cancel fee instead of paying 200 twice. once for paying the bill and twice for the cancellation.

otherwise, I'll be switching to verizon - good discount on my bills and I can get unlimited stuff.
so. yeah.

what else..
me and mr man don't talk anymore.. i blocked him off my list today.
and apparently me and brent got married yesterday haha.
so says facebook.

other than that, I'm planning on movies today. Mom invited me to go see something with her (not sure what, but I'd be pretty stoked to see Hairspray.)

Still doing laundry, lol.

I'll write more when stuff happpens.

bai